Don't stick your head in the oven! I was just busy. I am back, though, and ready to offer an explanation.
I think you might have Social Phobia. Paroxetine (Paxil) is one treatment for it. Another thing that you would find invaluable, I think, is some counseling (psychotherapy).
Don't worry, Social Phobia and other anxiety disorders are very treatable. There is no reason to fear that you might spend the rest of your life like this.
As always, if you feel like harming yourself or anyone else in any way, you must immediately call 911, or go to the nearest emergency room.
Please remember that I cannot make a diagnosis based on internet communication.
Dr. K. Eisele