So im seventeen, and a female. I have major abandonment fears and was recently in a very controlling relationship. the boyfriend ended up raping me repeatedly, and wouldnt let me out of the relationship. he soon raped my best friend, because i never told her how dangerous he is. ive had a bit of anorexia (80lbs at 5"8) and self-injured badly, especially when he wouldnt quit contacting me. within the last couple months, ive fixed myself up pretty well (about 105lbs, even though i hate how fat i feel) and no longer injure. However, i cant sleep. Generally i sleep about 2-4 hours a night tops. When i actually do sleep, i pass out completely, and will sleep more than 20hrs straight for days. Im in grade 12, and cant physically take the sleep depravation and absence in my classes anymore. When i sleep i cannot get up, and am constantly lethargic. My parents once took me to the hospital because they thought i was dead or almost dead. I don't have a psychiatrist and am not on any meds (no not even birth control). is there something i should be taking to keep me awake? or is it completely psychological problems that i have to fix?