I'm hoping someone can help me out. I was diagnosed a few years back with Major Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and I fear another episode of depression may be on the way.
Depression runs in my family, as does anxiety, and I've been on various anti-depressants over the years...Lexapro, Wellbutrin XL, Zoloft, and Effexor were the meds I was prescribed over the years, and I'm on Xanax for the anxiety as needed. I don't take the Xanax every day, but every few days I do. I'm no longer on anti-depressants, although Zoloft was the kindest to me when it came to side effects.
I feel that I'm on the verge of breaking down again. My mood has been low for weeks, my panic attacks are getting worse (both in intensity and duration), and I'm afraid that I'm at the breaking point. I spent eight months on disability a couple years back, and now have an okay job with less than okay pay, but my wife and I get by. My insurance isn't very kind when it comes to psychiatric services, we're on a shoe-string budget, and my doctor wants me to see a professional, but I can't afford the $150 each time I would go. I think I'd benefit from therapy, but just CAN'T afford it. My wife is out of work, the bills are high, and I make "too much" to qualify for any governmental help. The local crisis center is filled with people who really don't care, I've been there plenty of times, and I refuse to just stick a random pill down my throat to see if it "works." All they wanted to do was give me pills.
WIth that, my symptoms have grown worse over the past couple of months, and I've considered going back on Zoloft. My wife is against anti-depressants and it would cause a huge rift in our otherwise fine marriage were I to start taking anti-depressants again.
I'm jumpy, VERY irritable, unhappy and feel trapped.
Can someone point me in the right direction, please?