I need help from an online doctor. My anxiety is beginning to make me feel crazy. I am getting to the point where it is hard to function normally anymore. I can't afford to go to the doctor. I need someone to talk to that doesn't know me. I recently got married in july. That was extrememely stressful. My husband is wonderful, and I feel like I cannot be happy enough to be the wife I should be. I get angry very easily over nothing. I get frustrated over nothing and start having a panic attack. Every day when I wake up, I constantly start feeling nervous that the day is about to begin. I chew my nails and have a tremble in my hands that has been there ever since I can remember. I live 800 miles away from my nearest relative and have for a year and a half. I am very close to my family, so the move is something that I still haven't got used to. My hands constantly shake, and have ever since I can remember. My family has a history of anxiety and depression, which is why I hesitate to tell my family because I don't want them to know that I am not psychologically well. I feel so crazy all the time; like I can't control my thoughts or my feelings. I have a tension headache atleast once a day. I recently started a new job, and I get so nervous every day before I go to work that I make myself sick. My stomach is always in knots, I'm always shaking, I sweat like crazy, I have no apetite...I've lost 25 pounds in like 2 months..and I haven't been on a diet. I cannot keep food in me because my stomach is always uncomfortable. I've been on medications in the past...alprazolom or something like that. I quit taking it because I don't have insurance now.It helped to calm me down a lot. I wasn't afraid to go outside my house for once in my life. Please help me. I can't afford a psychiatrist, nor do i really want to go to one because I don't want to be labeled as crazy. Please help me stop shaking and want to be social and be able to have fun again.
Thanks for listening